It may seem as if
I am saying all the
wrong things and
turning to go in
what loos like
all the wrong ways
but I...

I am flowing
going where I
feel the cracks
and crevices
across the surface
of this reality
and run that way
like water
I...

fall apart
and gather myself
in suspended
seconds of self-doubt
that subside
to the security
of always
landing somewhere
do I...

go on
leaving
a stream of
emotions and
experiences
across the pages
of time
blurring the ink
until I
have seeped
into its sheets
and feed
the future
I...

just let me

Kept talking
hoping something I knew
would plant a seed
and stick inside of you
enough to go looking
where I'd been
at what I got a chance to see
and set fire to your notions
of what wasn't real
and make it your business
to make us bout the business
of being those that heal
cause I didn't want to
look like I was leading it
I know how misleading being
a leader can get
and I don't want the shots
ain't got a taste for the fame
just the change of the game
so I was trying to coach your souls
into setting some goals
then going back
to what I used to do
I wasn't volunteering
to speak for you
when I know your voices
work too
I was just saying
here I'd get you in the room
then you gotta do
what you do
I was all but begging
please don't make it me
what i'm doing
needs to be
but I can't be
the only one that see
not in the mist
of all these shouting
bout they know the
way to free
I wanted to just
work for..maybe be down
with the we
but bout that
being a voice of
leading or whatever
place you think I be
I was saying you do that
I was trying to empower you
cause I was saying
don't make it
be me

The puzzle is
thrown askew
everywhere
and nowhere
all at once
is it
are we
but in
the corners
of my mind
do small signs
shape the frame
of the bigger picture
we can't always see
so we know
where is too far
to go...just never
what's too deep
for right now
with nothing to
lay along side
to support it
are we shuffling
looking for
something to
make sense
even a little bit
a shift the still
to the position
of our visions
posture and poise
long enough
to look like
I got a handle
on a piece
of peace
of my mind

If ever the bottom falls out
and the walls feel like
they are falling down...
baby I'm here
just call my name
I was already
on my way

Just in case Plan B and C
don't pan out and
you don't know what you wanna do
never stand in fear
I'm here
before you knew
I knew
and knew
what to do

Maybe some dreams
didn't come true
baby that don't say nothin
bout you
bubbles burst all the time
we don't cry
tell lies
or not try

Pain will come
we humble ourselves
to the truth
and in the face
of all else...let lose
stand for something
always

Don't apologize
for being human
instead pray for
what they can be
prone to do
lay your plans
by whats best for you
and if anything should
happen to not go right
remember -
when all else fails
in your darkest moments
I always have a light

Call it an afinity
for that which comes
already chipped, dented,
and bruised
say I see something still
in what they are now
and what they used to be
not even intentionally
in the business of
saving souls
just noticed how
I had saved more loves
than had ever saved me
sat back and let it
sink in
around the time
he was creepin in
speakin then
never listenin
I stopped whisperin
something's missin
the pieces of him
left possessed by them
unable to regained
I remain
still in awe of
what saw fit to stay
giving allowances
for half-hearted ways
because fixing
is how I play
as night turns to day
seeing only what I want to
ignoring all the words spoken
loving and marveling
at how beautifully broken