p://www.imeem.com/people/RgNG6a/music/ZqKiO0Uu/jill-scott-i-keepstill-here/">I Keep/Still Here - Jill Scott

Dear Baby:

it's been a minute
since I did this
cause I been avoiding
talking to you
knowing you can see
how I been makin moves
a lot of shit you'da told me
not to do I did it anyway
knowing what you'd say
cause baby I'm not getting better
not like they said I would
not like they said I could
and all I can figure to do is
keep getting up and doing shit
even when my heart not in it
doing nothing just makes me worse
so is put the mask back on
under the shades and roll
or I stand to fold
I'm finding fewer things
on which to hold
and thank God I know God
or I'da been done by now
but I ain't gonna be able to
face you when I see you
if I don't make up out this
rut somehow
I know...so
I been ya know
trying...
truth be told
the act alone
feels like I'm dying
but I been sayin that I'm healed
and I know that I been lying
even though why they say I should be
makes sense...it don't to me
and I find myself missing the shit
out you cause how I thought
didn't make me crazy
this is crazy...that I gotta talk
to you on pages in letters
you can never write back
when I wish I could talk to you most
need my friend now more than ever
but I know that's no excuse
to not keep working at getting better
but I'm tell you now I don't think
it's gonna work if it means
I gotta act like you didn't matter