p://www.imeem.com/artists/matt_hires/music/E46L3ose/matt-hires-out-of-the-dark-album-version/">Out Of The Dark (Album Version) - Matt Hires

If even fools can
find their way out
and I am even half as smart
as you say I am
than why can't I
get away from here?
gave it all up
to my Lord
the fear
still am I
stuck in this dark
that hurts me
in blindsiding blows of
little things that send
constant reminders
of his laugh
and his smell
and all the stories
to me he'd lay in bed
and tell

why can't I
find my way back
to the land that is
high?
cause I am out of breath
and these sighs
are but the sounds
of a soul that wants nothing
but him back
but too grounded
in the reality
that this will never be
that he'll come again
once more
to heal
all that's wrong
with me...

so please
help me

I can't find
my smile
and our son's
only makes me cry more
like his mannerisms
and his faith in me
to make all that's wrong
right
I can't
not tonight
seems like even
when I thought I did
I find myself
with a face that's tight
cause I didn't
not quite
only did I
place band-aids
on bleeding moments
in time
but still
the wrongs are there
in our everyday
just as they are
all my rhymes

violent are these days
that replay in my mind
with no peace to find
and of days filled with
their kind
I can't seem to muster
my spirit lacks it's
old familiar luster
I am just
a shell of
what was once her
only you can't see
cause I always did
keep guarded
the real me

but he knew me

and who will
help me?

who will?
who can?
they can't even
understand
much less over
so I don't get there -
I don't get anywhere
and each day
less and less
do I care

can't you see it
telling my truth
in my stare?

help me Lord
I have lost my sword
and come to You
seeking no reward
just a silence
that doesn't cut
down to the bone
and a place
in this world
where I don't feel
so alone

please Father
take me home...

help me

please

please help me

I lost my way
and no longer can I see
why ever You
bothered with me
what You thought
they'd see
and all that is conveyed
in any lines or actions anymore
is more pain
than in which
anyone should ever be
epitomized
in the very existence
of me

please God
help me

won't you please
help me