p://www.imeem.com/greglaswell/music/sPjMe9Dn/greg-laswell-your-ghost/">Your Ghost - Greg Laswell

Just to be
in a movie or TV
I'd have given anything
to feel you come
and if nothing else
just hold me...

my tears
fall on
deaf ears
because I
suffer in silence
for fear
that I'll be told
I'm supposed to be
more over your
body growing cold...

though I'd give
anything I had
and borrow some too
just to be
back in the
arms of you...

why can't we be
like we used to be?
why can't you
please
just be here
for a moment
to bring peace
back to me?

I lay awake
in empty beds
running from silence
afraid to be alone
with myself
without you -
what else is there
left for me
to do?

Nothing that
has come after
has even come close
to you -
you were one of
a select few
a poet
that never wrote
but artistic
in every quote
that I attempt to
capture
in every note...

as if
laying down
with your words
will make
your absences
hurt less
or me
not so much
a mess
but you took
my best
and what I got now
is just
what's left...

can't stand to
see him smile
as he walks round
round here
all your mannerisms
and moves
feeling to my brokenheart
ever so vile -
what kind of mother
thinks that
when looking at
her own child?

But last night
like all the ones before
found me there
looking for,
reaching for - you
and you weren't anywhere
and it even hurts
for me to try to care
about anything else
I want you back
for myself...

calling old phones
just wishing it
accidently
made it to heaven
and made it so
I wasn't really
this alone
you just
someplace that
you can't come home
like jail
back in the day -
I'm in my zone

waiting for reality
to have mercy on me
and make this love
I know we had
be something that again
I put my finger on
and say I can see...

but that's not how
things were
meant to be -
is it?
so tell me
what do I do now
with all this shit?

cause I can't stand
to be alone with me
even
anymore
and truth be told
baby -
on trying...