I am
a woman that would rather
be loved for what she's not
than to be adored for what she is
because I think that
I only appear in some lights
because of the way the sun catches
the cracks and bounces back
jading the perception of me
and making it appear as if I shine brighter
than I really do

I am
everything I ever read
about these 2 fish and feel like
they might each have a twin
and you've no idea the struggle
to try and keep them both from sin
when they never headed the same way
and I do this all day
again and again

I am
not broken but certainly changed
from who I was as what I was ceased to be
there are still of course
pieces of myself still left in tact
guess their just harder to see
so I tend to not come across clearly
in matters of the heart
like I do when speaking politically

I am
brokenhearted
and following faith into the future
awaiting what is to come
with some hope for it being happy
it just hasn't yet
and still I have very few regrets

I am
a walking contradiction
and a series of moments
that surf on all extremes
an experience to be had
unable to be caught but
can be stilled
if one knows how's to go
with the flow

I am
all of these things
and others that I didn't say
topped with what I have still
to learn even
and I
am
trying to introduce myself
to you