*inspired by Shadina Bettis - If You Still Love Me
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I can't say
I love you
or I ever did
like I used to
though I know
my voice says so
act like
you don't know
what I mean
you left me
you asked for out
of my team
so to speak
so please
that hurt enough...

I remember when
I was trying to
give in and
mold myself from
what I was
to what you
wanted to be with
only to be met
by raised voices
and cold comments
so I said
"you win -
but can I at least
till be your friend?"

Now you kinda
every now and then
smile when you talk bout
back then
when you didn't do
anything close before
and I found out
my soul wonders
does your heart
love me more
and was it your mind
that felt like
we ran out of time?
cause in your world
I remember...
I learned early that love
was a crime

still you left me
and I loved you enough
to let you go
say thank you for what
we had and helping me grow
now cause I accepted
what we were
I gotta act like I
don't know
like I
don't love you still
like it didn't
hurt like hell
that you left me

and choose the joy
of knowing your loyalty
over the pain
of what we couldn't be...

Noticed recently
how he keeps reminding me
that he was for certain
in love with me
ain't no doubt about that
it's just he didn't want to
live his life like that
so while I thought my
heart was broken
he keeps taking me
back with words
to where we began
again and again
having mercy on my soul
making love to my mind
holding still moments in time
letting me breathe
reflecting all he didn't
understand but still
found an angle from
which to see
so much that his
soul on me
can I feel
though these hands
I reach for aren't real
I know their somewhere
because me did they heal
when nothing else
touched me
did he
and he keeps
he seeps
into my sorrow
and seconds of self doubt
and reminds me
what the beauty of me
is all about
it was never
that who I am
he couldn't see
and in his love
he keeps taking me
back to the
best of me...

There's a part of me
that still smiles at
the sound of his voice
wondering why my knees
just went weak for a second
but come to expect it
when his name pops up
on the phone...

the same part that
still sees him in dreams
and wonders what he's doing
though I been praying
for him to have someone
that is everything
I'm not cause
he deserves to be happy...

the part where his laugh
brings peace to my soul
and to travel within his mind
is poetry in 3D
even when the images
don't reflect me
they be amazing
to look at
even more so feel...

it's the part that
loves the effect of him
though knowing the cause
is counterproductive
to the things you wish
for him and I let go...

it's the part that
still loves him
but a stronger part of me
won't let me say so.