You were
my great escape
an alternate reality
that really felt good
with you I could
smile more sincere
and close both eyes
without fear
I liked it there
something like safe
it quickly became
my favorite place...

Meanwhile -
back at my life
it's loose ends
looking to be tied
blowing in the wind
broken hearted and
telling they mama's how
I used to be a better friend
never thought that
would ever come to an end
and all the while
I know it but
I ain't ready to talk yet
so it seems better
to let you think
I forgot...

I didn't though
laying with him
dreams haunted
by the lies I told
to lay with him
and not have to
turn the phone on silent
to keep it from ringing
in the wee hours of the night
putting out my mind
what I moved so it was
out my sight
and someplace they couldn't find me
cause they think they can still
make things right....

They can't though
they never stood a chance
I was using them too
running from what I'm
supposed to do
really meant some of it
but only to a select few
the rest never loved me
cause all of who and what I am
they ain't have a clue...

You see though
you that I run to
you that I can't get away from
but know I have to let go
cause this ain't a place for me
I ain't a fool -
I always could see
still I needed to feel
what being here let's me be
but the shadows keep callin
and little by little
I feel them makin the walls
start feelin like they fallin
but I know it ain't nothin
but what I ran from callin...

I wish I could take you with me
wish you were willing to come
apologize now if you miss me too much
and thank you for the vacation and such
but it's getting to be time
for me to go back where I came from...