*I'm in a zone on some personal ish...just feel me if you in the same space or also an artist...or just stop reading now

Hey you,
that my sun rises
from the ashes in
that is my soul..

truth be told -

I don't want to leave you
I just...

never learned how to
love something more
than I love myself
and we getting there...

you fade away into my stare
speak of me as if I'm not there
when she calls
but I know -
it ain't like that...

She just rides for you
like a girlfriend -
I know...
she knows she's not
right?

I got it
and again goodnight...

I'll wake to make your breakfast
to the tune of you wishing her
a good day and afternoon
telling her you love her
before you part
because it's not supposed
to break my heart

I feel you...

Mr. Free Agent you are

and me...not by far
but truth be told neither
is she

"we"

share you

and I am supposed to feel like
more than the chic on the side
swallow my pride
and continue with you on this ride -
right?

lost track of the days months ago
now I just say "goodnight"
because if I ask the questions
in my heart
than it will start a fight
so I take all my might
and swallow them
into sweet dreams...

as if you even knew what it meant -
to play for a team
insteada just recruiting...

you love me too -
I know...
that ain't what I'm disputing...

it's the rest,
it's the test,
it's the consuming of
all my best
with nothing you willing to invest...

that got me
ready to lick wounds
and tat over scars
cause by far
as beautiful as you are
I still
and always will
love me more

and cause you won't
it'll be why
you watch me walk out the door

with nothing to say
anymore

at this point -
what for???